This Is Why

She said. Why are you smiling?

I stood against the chair, feeling the corners of my mouth point to the ceiling.

I shook my head. No reason.

She asked again.

Same response.

I’m offered coffee with carmel macchiato creamer.

I accept without hesitation.

Would you like waffles?

Only butter please.

I hope I spread it evenly enough.

Pfft. Yeah because I only eat I Can’t Believe It’s Not Butter.



She set the waffles in front of me.

I stick the plastic knife & fork into the toasted morning delicacy.

Want help?

I’m going to get it.

The waffle finally split in half.

You got it! Encouragement without mockery.

She settled on a movie. Is this okay? Pirates of the Caribbean.

Another reason we are becoming friends.

Mutual love for Johnny Depp as a pirate.

We sat there, working on different dreams, separated by laptops.

Music & poetry.

Do you know how to delete these words?

I took the laptop, highlighted the words, deleted.

I gave it back, finding I deleted too much.

I’m sorry. I was only trying to help.

I know. It’s okay.

I wanted to do this right the first time.

I fought the urge to beat myself up.

Such a tiny thing.

I’m human.

I exhale.

I don’t do taxes people.

I don’t want 24 pages of poetry.

It needs to be small.

A sample. Like a demo. She remarked.

I’m understood.

We continued working.

I edited, emailed, and held random conversation with this beautiful friend.

Without fear.


Worry the time is ending.

What I’m used to

Replaced with love.



When she says she’ll miss me,

I know she means it.

Despite my negative comment about I’m not much to miss,

Her smile as I pulled away from her hug proved otherwise.


I’m known.


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