arms holding me eternally tight

yes, maybe i
am blue over
how easily i want
to renounce all
my friends. for
being alone is
easier, than exploding
on who i know: God loves
me like this..my insides
ache with a longing no
human can ever meet.
i want to run aground
this want

FMF prompt: blue. I’ve been watching Jesus start to overwhelm me with this question: will you let me fill your emptiness with myself? i think i’m scared (no, i am) of being brought to the floor in tears with how much he loves me. i’ve been fighting pushing everyone away and locking myself with Jesus, or running to everyone else & leaving him behind (which is silly because he’ll never leave my side).

I’m thankful for who God has placed in my life right now. They make me laugh, look me in the eyes (even when I’m off in lala land, or look like I may break), listen, hug me, hold me, sing with me & encourage me to believe God has a plan for my life.

That’s a good thing he hasn’t withheld from me. God, please help me to relax into your love. Help me receive with open hands. Let me taste & savor your goodness. Grace.

Let me fall in love without knowing.

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2 thoughts on “arms holding me eternally tight

  1. Thank you for your words here today. I am learning how to relax into Jesus’ love too. I read this recently and want to share it with you:
    “You are so young, so before all beginning, and I want to beg you, as much as I can, to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves—like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. The point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.” —RAINER MARIA RILKE, Letters to a Young Poet
    Blessings and hope to you today.
    Visiting from FMF.

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