I’d like to park myself
in a chair, but I am already
there. Here. Watching the
Sun come in & out, brighten
& fade out–Lord, I am over-
whelmed by goodness, Yours
alone. It is as heavy as the sorrow I’ve
held, like a stone
cold I have grown used to but
oh, could You roll it away now,
give me something new to hold,
I’m parked at the kitchen table, trying to work on a guest post about a miracle God has done in my life. And while looking up some info today, I keep thinking, God, you really did save my life! That could have been so much worse and I already didn’t know what was wrong..at least I don’t remember being told. I just remember the pain. The ache. The unknown. But you were there THE WHOLE TIME! Through all that delirium…Smiling and telling me to eat and washing my body. Telling me to sleep, it will be alright. And I didn’t know, but through that time & this valley, you’ve been show me what I can’t get out of my head since I read it the other day:
Lord, I don’t get it, but I’m going to get to that point where I’ll simply be able to accept this. I won’t have to fight your invite, but smile and say, alright. You can whisper, bring me smiles and laughter, any way to show me your love is true.
You’re hilarious, really. You make me want to laugh and cry all at the same time.