I know right now I could sit here and twiddle my thumbs and worry —so tempting— but I’m going to sit here and worship You instead. You are healer. You are comfort. You are hope. You are restoration. You are redeemer. You are sovereign—You got all this under control. Thank You for the doughnuts and coffee this morning that I am still savoring. Thank You for the friends You’ve put in my life—I’m so thankful they will pray and let me dispel any fear and share my heart. Thank You for Kristene Dimarco’s song, Fear Not. You know it’s on a loop right now. I’m kind of surprised Spotify hasn’t gone to commercial yet. Hahaha.
When the questions start arising
Keep your eyes fixed straight ahead
Hold on tightly to the promise
Hold firmly to the truth,
That I love you,
Oh, I love you.
Show me Your face today—the love that captivates me. Holds me. Reassures me.
This is hard. It hurts. This feeling I’m not enough. Shut out. Shut down. And once again, I feel the hurry of this world—the peace that this world gives when you have results. Your presence, Lord. Your eyes. Your face. Maybe that’s why I want keep Kristene Dimarco’s music yesterday & today, because I need the refuge and I keep hearing You.
My heart is set on Your face,
Now open these eyes to see.
You’re the best believer in me.
Let it be so, Lord. Let me see.
Your tender haired girl.
PS. Thank You for Sarah – for her telling me I’m so very loved and to never forget it. And the venti java chip (I love the coffee-ness over flat out chocolate) from her. I love that she never minds. It’s like she delights in it. Thank You for showing in writing an email to Trisha, writing is something You have called me to. Thank You for the Skit Guys-Fully Human, Fully God–helps me see You understand the fear, the anger, the sorrow. Thank You for holding my family. together. And me. Thank You for being before all things, in all things & hold ALL things together.