I’m tired. Two times I felt that fear that likes to steal my breath today. In hopes of receiving a text (all those girly feelings I forget I have. I know it’s fine, Lord, but it scares me I have them) and in answering a text. Two different people. Two different circumstances, but the fear still feels like it wants to choke me. But I read the verse this morning that says I don’t have to be afraid because You are by my side. I won’t be shaken. Lord, in one of the texts I’m watching myself be open while in another I’m closing. Quiet. It’s better than over sharing my heart. At least that’s how it feels right now.
Gratitude for today:
-Grapes/strawberries for breakfast
-Talking with uncle scott
-talking with Raechel
The message from Lisa
-Being able to give mom a late birthday
-Watching Gilmore girls and that movie with mom
-Plans to see a wrinkle in time or The Greatest Showman with Kelly maybe next weekend. (hello anticipatory happiness)
-Dad giving me peppers and Brussel sprouts
-No Filter – Britt Nicole
Thank You for understanding my heart, Lord. I need you. To feel Your arms around me. The gentleness of Your presence.