Please lift the weight
In my chest—I cant miss him
Anymore. I don’t want to—the
Ache to all him how he is or
Share about going to see Lauren
Daigle—it will not come off the same
As telling a guy who wants to follow
You – and cares my heart in a way I’ve
Yet to experience. It is the waves of
Wondering – is there someone out there
Who wants to pursue me & not as a side
Thing? Will I at some point stop wanting
Him to come to You? The joy of Your love
Even when your heart is aching? Will this
Get any easier? Why did marriage have to
Be a thing this year? Will You hold me
Close now & bring laughter again & again
Until this is distant & far from my memory?
It is hard, Lord, to sit in this darkness along
With friends aching — each of us in a distant
Circle—this hurts but it will get better—we tell
Each other over & over—God has this—can I
Have a listening ear? Will there be a joyful time
At one time where the confetti can explode &
The dancing Ive seen in my dreams will feel as
The best surrender?
I give You this burden
because You promise
You tenderly care for me
& You will lift up my head.
*written some with/without timer because I thought it started, but apparently not. This was a hard one to write, but I’m so thankful for the friends who are there to pick me up & speak truth when it is hard to take because my heart just aches. But there is music and laughter & prayer & a fun game called Red Flags I want to play forever & a Christmas concert: Lauren Daigle’s Behold Tour in December & a fun countdown app another friend showed me. So, no matter how much pain I feel right now, God’s got me under His wings. I’m holding on to that today.