I don’t know
what is happening
anymore. I just know
there is quiet in the 2am
hour & before: I can’t like
a guy I’ve only met once
before. Oh, here come all
these feelings again. Ugh.
There’s the peace again.
You know we used to laugh
so much before, joke around.
What happened to that? Where
did it go? Did I go too deep too soon? Why
am I somehow not
completely panicked about these things
like is generally typical? One is new, one
has been around awhile, but
this peace inside feels as if You’ve
stepped into the room.
I see you. I hear you. I love you.
You can keep talking, child. I love to
listen to you.
& I beg You for healing, Lord,
for my family, for a friend’s back, for
time with another friend at the movies,
favor with a sweepstakes for a book the
movie is based on (and yes, I know
there’s like 9000 people so far and five
books being given, but it’d be cool to be
one of five, like willy wonka & a golden
ticket. My ticket is Your listening ear), for
a friendship to be restored, and maybe
a start with that guy even if it turns to
nothing more. A way to do that psalms
bible plan with the friend who hurt her
the patience to wait and see,
to be still before You, Jehovah
Sabaoth- sa-ba-oath (who promises to
always love me) and sends His angel
help me. Help me be still & know You are
God. You are peace & You know the fire
deep in my soul. Loves me
when I fall & surrounds me
with love & kindness because
even as the winds blow & I don’t know,
You crown me
with goodness to awaken
the little girl who knows
she is royal.
Thank You for
being loyal, my
The sparkle in
Your tender haired girl.