Like a skin,
the light of Your love
shines in. God, it’s as if
You have a flashlight to
look inside my heart. I can
almost hear Your whisper,
what makes you so afraid?
I will be left alone, forgotten,
abandoned. I will have to work
for approval when deep inside
I feel a child in the dark. I know
You want me to have my eyes
open wide. The love comes, God, and it is
a gentle touch.
I’m here, child. I’m here. I’m here.
Say it again.
this one where all
I see is broken within
& without, You see more
than I am at this moment –
You fight. Reprise my joy
again. Let me find you here
in the morning where I see today, Your
kindness shining bright. Right in my eyes
with the sun, the cat across the table laying there. This tea.
The warmth. Ellie Holcomb coming
through these new headphones aptly
You are doing something. Your joy my
portion and my strength.
One thing I know: I feel You
are going to tell me You are loved over
and over again.
It looks beautiful and always wins. It
makes me grateful.
You are the someone who will
not let me go. You are my success. You
are going to come right on time. You will.
You are here right now. Hold me still.
Rest me in Your songs of deliverance
Your tender haired girl
“He will send from heaven and save me from the slanders and reproaches of him who would trample me down or swallow me up, and He will put him to shame. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]! God will send forth His mercy and loving-kindness and His truth and faithfulness.”Psalm 57:3 AMPC
I really like this verse in this version a lot. Save me from reproaches and the slanders. Not that I didn’t feel them earlier because as he was leaving, he kept saying to do something new. besides sit here with you. I don’t want to. I have no desire to. I don’t like that I don’t feel well either. Just gross. Tired. But maybe a 5 minute walk. I really want time with a friend. Actually I don’t, but maybe it will do some good too. Send forth your mercy and lovingkindness. Please and thank you.
Previous letter here.